(Bereaved) Mother's Day
Last year for mother's day I was pregnant, secretly celebrating my first mothers day, and rolling in pure bliss. This year, even though I thought I'd be okay, I woke up with an immense sadness in my heart. Every year I see people posting pictures of their kiddos for mothers day, and every year my reaction changes. 5 years ago, all I would feel is happiness for them. 4 years ago, I felt my ovaries leap with every picture of a baby, and it was exciting! 3 years ago I decided I wanted to have one of those little things, and you bet I was loving all of the pics. 2 years ago, I was frustrated, I was defeated, I was angry, and I didn't want to see everyone's successes, because they were just a reminder of my failures. 1 year ago, everything was perfect. Everything. Was. Perfect. This year? This year was the most confusing and heart breaking of them all. It's insane to think about the fact that you can feel both sadness and happiness at the same time. W...